Thoughts on Earlier Thinking.

When I was a little I thought that every little girl had a twin brother and every little boy had a twin sister and I wouldn't let anyone tell me otherwise. I thought that the '54 Godzilla and the '85 The Return of Godzilla were the only movies worth watching-so they're the only ones that I watched. I refused to cut or brush my hair and on every gift-giving holiday, I would ask my father to get me "a pink pony that flies"(Toys 'R Us made that easy for him). I don't remember my philosophies, I just remember being a little eclectic and very carefree.

When I was in grade school, I read constantly. When I wasn't buried in a book, I was at ballet, or holed up in my room painting. I can't say I was very social. I had a lot of time to myself-so naturally, I started to figure out exactly what I thought. The hardest realization I ever came to was that I didn't believe in God-especially not the God I was told about in Church. I still think that's true.

Now, I think differently. More positively, I guess? Still eclectic-not carefree. I'm still working it all out. It's rocky. I don't really want to look back at earlier thoughts I had and say that they're right or say that they're wrong because I don't know if they are. All I know is that I thought some things that I don't think now and I starting thinking about others and I'm still thinking about them.